Changes!

Didn't realize it'd been so long since I'd written anything.  Looking back at old posts I see that some things have changed.  But hey the more they change...well...

So I got rid of X...big surprise.  Just couldn't take the drama and the theatrics.  I need to be in a relationship where I can be the female, no role reversals here. 

Celebrated my 30th in Las Vegas over Labor Day weekend.  Can't believe I am now in a new decade but hey, the tears have dried and I'm now trying to see what I can do to make my 30's as memorable as my 20's were.  I figured in Vegas I would just lose my mind doing all kinds of crazy shit, but the craziest I got was being drunk off my ass one night and having to be escorted to my room. (Side note I'm SO done with Belvedere.)

Lets see what else has happened.  OH...met up with Blue while I was in Vegas.  No real sparks to report there but I did find that I do still enjoy his company.  Verdict is still out on whether I can press rewind on that relationship but I'm giving it serious thought.  Is it possible for someone who cheated so callously in the past to now be faithful and worthy of a second chance?  Question of the century.  I was kinda hoping to run into his old side chic who was supposed to have been there the same weekend, but no such luck.

Anywho thats it for today as far as updates go bc thats all I feel like typing. Don't know if or when I'll ever go back to Twitter so all my Twitter fam hit me up.

Deuces!

Never a Right Time...

...to say good bye...

So obviously the break didn't work.  2 days into it he ended up calling me and telling me how miserable he was, that not having me to talk to or 'completely' in his life was too hard.  So I said fine, forget the break.  But didnt take a day for us to be back at it again.  Or maybe I should say for him to be on my nerves again and we were arguing.

Maybe the problem is me.  I feel it in my heart that I need to let it go, heard the words come out of my mouth, that we need to let it go, but still can't silence the voice that asks "Are you sure?"

Time To Regroup

So finally something had to give.  In all our talks it finally took my mom to get him to realize that sometimes when you try your hardest to hold tightly on to something you cause the very thing to happen that you were trying to prevent.

 I went home for a week Memorial Day and I won't say we argued the whole time but it was definitely tense.  I stayed with him this time instead of with my mom like I usually do, and just tried to make time to see everybody more than once while I was there.  First major argument came after a trip to the mall when he took me shopping.

I really think...

He is crazy...

That is all for now...

It Aint No Fun...

"...If the homies can't have none..."

So picture a guy in a situation with a girl where they are basically just messing around, not really anything serious.  After a period of time, knowing that the girl is really feeling him, the guy is able to convince the girl into sleeping with his cousin AND one of his boys.  Not at the same time (like a train), but on different occasions she sleeps with both of them.

Ok, at this point you may just be thinking wow, that's some #hoshit (or maybe those are just my thoughts).