...Angel On My Left...

Serenity..

2011-06-21T06:06:00.002-04:00

Some things just seem so unreachable. Some things you wish you could plug the location into a gps and navigate your way there. Some places once you get there you wish you could simply make a few clicks and clean it away as easy as a virus on a computer. Pain. This thing that you never invited into your body, into your heart, moves in and takes over, affecting all other systems and

It Really Is A Shame...

2011-05-31T01:25:00.000-04:00

"...I see through all of you and its so clear..." Love Eve!

Open Mic...

2011-05-20T09:58:00.001-04:00

The Strong Black Woman is Dead! On August 15, 1999 at 11:55 p.m., while struggling with the reality of being a human instead of a myth, the strong black woman passed away, without the slightest bit of hoopla. Medical sources say that she died of natural causes, but those who knew and used her know she died from: being silent when she should have been screaming, milling when she should have been

When people show you who they are...

2011-05-18T17:37:00.001-04:00

I would say 95% of the time when things go bad in a relationship, the female knew it was coming. We have this tendency to ignore red lights and flashing signs when we meet somebody we think we wanna be with. You know, those things that tell us "Un un girl he aint the one, RUN!!" We make excuses for things that really speak for themselves... He's over the age of 30 (hell even 25) and doesn't

Truths and Randoms

2010-12-22T23:54:00.000-05:00

"Truth indeed rather alleviates than hurts, and will always bear up against falsehood, as oil does above water..." It's definitely a boy. Don't ask me how I know, and as much as I want another girl, I'm convinced this is a boy. And as the acne takes me back to my teenage years, my belts are a thing of the past and I can no longer see the striations in my abs that I worked so hard for, I find

Karma aint the bitch...

2010-12-02T15:35:00.001-05:00

I'd say fate is... So Saturday my boyfriend and I had a huge falling out. I went looking to find out some things that it was obvious that he'd been hiding, and found out a little more than I bargained for. I ended up emailing his baby's mom and telling her about us, in an attempt to find out when/if they'd in fact broken up. That was pretty much a dead end street, because the answers she gave

When you go looking...

2010-11-28T01:16:00.001-05:00

Shouldn't be anything to find! At least thats my opinion but obviously I'm one of very few who believe that. I know at this point no one can EVER tell me that there is no truth behind a woman's intuition because I swear before everything good it has NEVER led me wrong. Maybe I'll post what happened soon but for now I'll just say fool me once... Never again...

Changes!

2010-09-21T11:47:00.001-04:00

Didn't realize it'd been so long since I'd written anything. Looking back at old posts I see that some things have changed. But hey the more they change...well... So I got rid of X...big surprise. Just couldn't take the drama and the theatrics. I need to be in a relationship where I can be the female, no role reversals here. Celebrated my 30th in Las Vegas over Labor Day weekend. Can't

Never a Right Time...

2010-07-08T18:09:00.003-04:00

...to say good bye... So obviously the break didn't work. 2 days into it he ended up calling me and telling me how miserable he was, that not having me to talk to or 'completely' in his life was too hard. So I said fine, forget the break. But didnt take a day for us to be back at it again. Or maybe I should say for him to be on my nerves again and we were arguing. Maybe the problem is me.

Time To Regroup

2010-07-03T09:02:00.001-04:00

So finally something had to give. In all our talks it finally took my mom to get him to realize that sometimes when you try your hardest to hold tightly on to something you cause the very thing to happen that you were trying to prevent. I went home for a week Memorial Day and I won't say we argued the whole time but it was definitely tense. I stayed with him this time instead of with my mom

I really think...

2010-06-03T01:05:00.002-04:00

He is crazy... That is all for now...

It Aint No Fun...

2010-05-19T23:39:00.003-04:00

"...If the homies can't have none..." So picture a guy in a situation with a girl where they are basically just messing around, not really anything serious. After a period of time, knowing that the girl is really feeling him, the guy is able to convince the girl into sleeping with his cousin AND one of his boys. Not at the same time (like a train), but on different occasions she sleeps with

I May See Why People Cheat...

2010-05-08T12:31:00.003-04:00

And it's crazy for me to admit that as a woman. But I think I see it. When I was making my list of things I wanted God to give me, I thought I was pretty specific but now I see I left a few things out. This dude has a lot going for him but I just cannot get with arguing over every little thing. When he's upset its like dealing with a child, he sulks and drags things out for days, until he

Konnichiha!

2010-04-15T08:58:00.001-04:00

Day one in Japan on business and I'm excited! It's definitely been an adventure already. 8 hour flight from Hawaii, slept the entire way (thanks to a little assistance from Tylenol PM). My coworkers and I caught the subway from the airport to our hotel in Tokyo, that was an experience in itself. Imagine 2 whites and 1 black in a sea of Asian...we stuck out like sore thumbs. One man who was

Paradox

2010-04-10T11:30:00.001-04:00

"He was a really great boyfriend except for the fact that he cheated..." Makes perfect sense to me, but I guess I can see how one could cancel out the other. New relationship, we'll call him X, who feels like he can't escape the ghosts of my relationships past. Namely one ex-boyfriend who I've mentioned here before, we'll call him Blue. I feel like Blue and I had a really good relationship

Merry? Ha....

2009-12-26T13:40:00.000-05:00

Day 3 of being in a hotel, but there is hope! I couldnt get out of Baltimore on Monday due to the backlog of flights that were cancelled on Saturday during the blizzard. And let me just take this time to say I will NEVER...EVER..(insert Smokey voice here)...book a flight with Delta Airlines. They are THE most unprofessional, uncoordinated bunch of asses I have ever had to deal with. There were

And Then They're Gone...

2009-11-23T17:13:00.003-05:00

Last Tuesday my grandfather passed away, after a short (or long?) battle with lung cancer. I barely even remember him smoking, he stopped when I was 9 or 10 (a good 20 years ago), but I guess by then the damage was already done because it still caught up with him. He was that person who was the class clown; always joking and playing, sometimes to the point where we'd say 'Hush Papa you play to

Trey Songz-Invented Sex

2009-11-04T17:50:00.003-05:00

*sigh* Cigarette please?

Art Imitates Life?

2009-10-25T23:46:00.005-04:00

So after days of 'boycotting' in my own little way, I decided to go ahead and listen to Rhianna's latest single. Just reading the lyrics on NecoleBitchie I figured it would be hella depressing, but I didnt realize how much until the very end of the song (if you've heard it then you know what I'm referring to). The song has already stirred controversy, with Tiffany Evans saying it was

Slow Love

2009-10-24T15:41:00.000-04:00

Ok for all my 80's babies, this one is what I call a throwback. Aside from the short puffy tail in the back and the one gold-trimmed tooth in the front, lol, I love everyhing about this song. Reminisce with me :-) xoxo

RIP Black America (video below)

2009-10-21T23:35:00.003-04:00

This video is a few months old but someone just sent me the link on Twitter tonight (thanks LM) and I found it eyebrow-raising to say the least. I admit when the video first started I was immediately put on the defensive. I thought here we go, another video made with the intent to put us down and make us feel like we are responsible for the state of "Black America". But after a few minutes I had

Resurrection

2009-10-12T01:10:00.011-04:00

Had a cool Sunday; beautiful weather, laid around for most of it then had Sunday dinner at a relative's house (who put her FEET in some candied yams, greens, bbq chicken and cornbread by the way), watched a funny episode of Cleveland show, then came home to relax. Yea, pretty chill Sunday. So I log on Twitter and I'm reading one of my favorite blogger's timelines trying to see if I missed

Melanie Fiona "It Kills Me"

2009-10-10T15:15:00.005-04:00

There is really no legitimate purpose for this post, other than to say I can absolutely relate to the lyrics and that I am in love with her voice. We all do crazy things for love, things that surpass all understanding, even to the ones in the moment. No matter how much we know we should leave, that one word will make us stay in the worst of situations.Anywho.....enjoy :-)

Games we play

2009-10-02T22:18:00.006-04:00

So I got an 'interesting' text today from a somewhat 'old' flame. I say somewhat old because we only stopped talking a few months ago. At first he was the guy that I wasn't really paying attention too, but then after awhile I figured he seemed to have his sh*t together so I decided to give him a chance. Everything was going really good for awhile, until one day I made a 'joke' about him not

Stones & Jewels

2009-10-01T23:40:00.003-04:00

"If you go outside, you can find a thousand stones on the ground. They are lying around everywhere. You can just pick any one of them up anytime and put it right into your pocket, or throw it back onto the ground. It has no value, so no one cares. But when a stone is a precious jewel, it is surrounded and protected. You'll have to work very hard to earn it, and even harder to keep it for

Revelations

2009-10-01T17:22:00.002-04:00

You ever think you mean something to someone and find out later you really didnt mean anything? Wow how that can hurt.I had a 'fling' for a short time with a coworker (first mistake right), that lasted only a few months. During that time we agreed that if someone else entered the picture for either of us we would be honest about it....after all it wasnt a 'relationship' we had, just more of a '

...and so I blog...

2009-09-29T23:58:00.001-04:00

You ever think about things and wonder if you're alone in your thoughts? Or wonder if the things you go through are unique to only your life? I do...all the time...Never was very good at keeping a diary. I remember I tried once in school right after I surrendered the big V (we'll leave ages unsaid)..but I quickly gave that up after my mom found it and went ballistic at my 'excursions'. After